PART 14


I couldn't sees nothin through my tears...and thens I walked into somethin...and that was it...I lost my fuckin mind. Turns out it were a car...but it weren't much of one by the times I gots through with it. I started kicking the shit out of one of the doors and withs each kick picture of Liz would comes into my head...Liz..the first time I ever seen her...the look on her face when she were pissed at me...her laughing after I dropped her ons her head...her look when she were scared...when she wanted to touch me and just how fuckin beautiful her looked after I gaves her...her first orgasm...but then my rage fuckkin explodes as I see the look ons her face as she call out Maxie boys name...leaving me fuckin laying on the floor. Jumping ups on the hood of the car...I starts jumping around ands screaming like a fuckin madman. "I'M THE MAN....I'M THE MAN...I'M THE FUCKIN MAN...HERES THAT PRINCESS...I IS THE FUCKING MAN"

"Your the fuckin man alright" I didn't knows I were being watched...and when I turned to see who it were...I lost my balance and fell off the fuckin car. "I see your drunk too...huh Evan's...but that doesn't explaine what the hell are you doing...and just what is the deal with the get up of yours" he saids laughin at me...whiles he pulled me up offs the ground. "Halloween is over big guy...case you didn't know" I guess he didn't wants an answer...cause I watched as he staggered across the grass...falling into a bench after he walked into it. "Come on Evan's...keep me company" he said...smacking the empty spot next to him. "looks like we both are having the same problem...woman"

I didn't knows who this punk were...but he thoughts I were someone else...didn't takes me long to figure out who he thought I were...but I sats down anyway.


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"ZAN" I screamed running back into the Crashdown...past Ava and up the stairs...and into my bedroom. He wasn't there...and then I remembered the look of confusion on his face as I called out Max's name...as I pushed him off of me. "ZAN" I cried again...running into my parents room...but I knew that he wasn't going to be there...I couldn't feel him anymore...either.

"You gots some explaining to do" Ava screamed...pushing me backwards into the wall...if Ava was frightened before with Michael and Isabel...she sure wasn't now. "Whats the hell your prob Liz...you tell him you loves him and then your fuckin cryin to me bout how much you loves Max" I didn't have an answer for her...but she was right. Just an hour before...Zan and I had been intimate...we were going to make love and it was going to be the first time for both us. I told him I loved him...I did love him...but I loved Max too. "I don't know" I cried...as I slide down the wall to the floor below.

"What's you mean...you don'ts know" she continues to scream...pacing back and forth in front of me. "I will fuckin kill you Liz...if you hurt him...do you hears me. I loves Zan...I knows that I toldts you that I weren't gonna die if you's two hooked up...but I fuckin lied. He don't loves me...but I loves him Liz...I gaves him to you...cause he fuckin loves you...and I thoughts you loved him...guess I were wrong bout you..."

Ava continud to yell...but I couldn't hear her. My head was clouded with nothing but Zan...how he caused sensations to run through out my body...even before we had met. I recalled the way my body responded to him...the first time I saw his beautiful face...how I wanted to kiss him...touch him...taste him...so much so that it made me forget about everything...the first time I kissed him...and how my want for him took me over completely. But what I kept coming back to was that....he may have caused all these reactions in me...but the truth was...he made me happy.

Yes...I loved Max. What I had with Max was wonderful and special...but truth be told...I was never really happy. There was always something tearing us apart...it started with Max and his self doubts...Michael and Isabel and their fears...Tess and her destiny...and ended with Future Max and his revelations of the end of the world. I loved Max...but when it came to our relationship...I usually ended up tearful and broken hearted.

With Zan it was different...he loved me and he wasn't afraid to tell me...to show me. I knew that he wouldn't let anything get in the way of his love for me...not duties...destinys or even the end of the world...and I wanted that....I wanted him....I loved him.

"I love him Ava" I whispered...causing her to stop her pacing and turn to me. "I just didn't realize how much until now. I'm so sorry Ava...I didn't mean to hurt you. I know that you love him...but I love him too. He makes me happy...It just took me till now to realize it...we need to find him...I can't lose him now" I whispered through my tears as I looked up at her face. I was unable to read the look that now covered her face...but as she pulled me off the floor...I knew that she wasn't done with me yet.


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"Kind of reminds you of the last time we got drunk...huh Evan's" he laughed...punching me in the arm "Except were not breaking into her room...and rooting through her underwear drawer" I didn't know who the hell this guy were...I ain't never met my dupe...but I had a hard time picturing him rooting through some bitches draws. He took another look at me and started laughing again. "So what IS the deal with the outfit anyway" What the hell...I thought...I'll play alongs. "I wanted to be's differnt"

"Be's different huh...well you certainly succeded...got the accent and all. So why is it that your trying to be's different...oh wait...it wouldn't have anything to do with a certain...Miss Parker now would it Evan's. I wanted to scream ats the top of my lungs...OF COURSE ITS HAS TO DO WITH HER....IT ALWAYS HAS TO DO WITH HER...ITS WILL ALWAYS HAVES TO DO WITH HER.

Different huh...maybe I should make myself different...Nah...I look to damned good to change this face...I have to admit it though...your kinda creeping me out. I guess you chose the right look...cause you are the complete opposite of the Max Evans' I know and love" this guy was buggin...but I hads a feeling that he knowed somethin about my dupe and my princess...and I hads to find out. I asked him if he wanted me to change into my dupe form...but he tolds me no...

"Actually Evan's I take that back...it makes it a whole lot easier to talk to you this way...since the whole...well you know...sleeping with Liz thing"

I didn't know what the fuck he were talking about...and at the time it didn't fuckin matter...cause he were gonna be dead fuckin for lying about my princess. She were a virgin...I knew she were...I could feel it. "WHAT'S THE FUCK YOU TALKIN BOUT" I screamed...picking his ass off the bench and throwing him ons the ground. "I'MS GONNA KILL YOU PUNK...FOR LYING ABOUT HER...NO ONE FUCKIN TALKS SHIT ABOUT HER...NO ONE" Once he hit the ground I went to zap his ass with my fuckin powers...but somethin he said mades me stop.

"NO...please don't...your right. Nothing happened...it was all a set up...don't ask me why...cause I don't know. She came over that night and asked me for a favor...I didn't know what it was until we got to her room...and even when she told me I didn't understand what the hell she was talking about...all I knew was that she wanted to make it look like her and I slept together. Look...Evan's I know that you hate me...and that I keep bitching about how I never wanted to be in your I know an alien club...but I like you...and I'm not saying that cause you can fry my ass with a wave of your hand. But...Liz is my friend and she needed my help...but this lie hasn't help me either you know...I love Tess...yes Tess...I have been in love with her from the first time I saw her...but she loves you...and now she thinks that I slept with Liz and that just gives her all the more reason to go after you....are you happy now....you know what....just do it...just fry my ass now...and end my suffering...I don't need this shit. I am Kyle Valenti..."

None of this shit made sense...she lied to my dupe about sleeping with this guy. I watched as he lay on the ground...just running is fuckin mouth. I still didn't know this punks name...but he were cool with me...cause he were there for my princess when she needed him. Then it hit me...

I hads to help her...as much as I fuckin hated my dupe...she loved him...and he mades her happy...and thats all that mattered to me thats she were happy. I were gonna be without my princess...but she were gonna be happy. Yes I were pissed it weren't me that were gonna make her happy...but it ain't matter anymore. I hads to figure out why she lied to him...whats she were protecthing him from...and once I dids...Ava and I were heading back to New York...I hads business to take care of anyways...Lonnie and Rath.


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"You aint's gonna find him...when Zan gets like this he just disappears. Back in New York...he woulds get into it with Rath and disappears for days...fore we sawed him again. Don't worry Liz...he's gonna come back...he ain't gonna stay away from yous. Best things to do is just wait for him...go gets some sleep...night Liz"

I watch as she left my parents room...and me alone with my thoughts. I wondered where he was...and if he was alright. I knew that he heard me confess my love for Max...why else would he have just disappeared like that. It broke my heart to know that I was the one that caused this to happen...but I could fix this...I had to fix this.

I decided to take Ava's advice and try and get some sleep...I now felt as if I had the weight of the world back on my sholders...and just the thought of that feeling makes me tired as I tell you about it...so I will move on.


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I found Ava sleeping ons the couch...she knowed that I be back...likes I said she knowed me better then I knowed myself. I hads to make sure that my fuckin dupe made it home alive...as much as I wished he were dead...a dead Maxie Boy weren't gonna make Liz happy. I didn't knows what to do since I were her and he were there...and then its fuckin hit me...Shell.

Shell were the only human that we's ever hung with...she were a lot like us...no...she weren't alien...she were just a punk. She gots my ass outs of trouble so many fuckin times...I lost count. I knew that it anyones was gonna help me it were gonna be her. I ain't never tolds her our secret...but I thinks that she knew we was different. She ain't never said nothin...and I ain't never said nothin...so we was cool.

"Yo...you's better have a good fuckin reason for calling mes in the middle of the fuckin night" she screamed into the phone...making me laugh for the first times since I left. I tolds her who it were and whats I needed her to do...she ain't have a problem with it...I knowed she wouldn't. "So's you's want me to looks for a guy that looks exactly like you...but not likes you. K...Zan...you's got it...I do's anythin for you baby" I always thought that Shell had a thing for me...maybe I'd give her a chance once I gots done with this shit.

I hung up the phone and walked over to the couch where Ava were sleeping and I laid done side her. This shit weren't nothin new for us...I would always lays with her after I came back from blowing off steam. We ain't never did the deed...but I knowed that Ava were there for me's each time I needed her and this time were no exception. I knowed that Liz were upstairs...but I ain't want to see her just then. I were still pissed...and I knowed that one look froms her and that woulds be gone is a flash. I pulled Ava into my arms as I driftede off to sleep. I weren't thinkin bout Ava though...I were pretending that it were my princess...and it brought a smile to my face.



PART 15


I couldn't sleep...as much as I tried...sleep was just something that I wasn't going to be doing that night. I had to much on my mind...I felt like I had the weight of the world back on my shoulders. As I laid in my bed...tossing and turning...thoughts of Zan and Max swirled through my mind.

I loved Max...I loved Zan...I loved two men that were the same...and yet so different. Max...the focal point of my life for such a long time. Zan...I had only known Zan for a few days...but it felt as if I had known him for a life-time. Max...always trying to protect me from everything...and in doing so only hurt me by keeping us apart. Zan...though I only knew him a few days...I already knew that he would never push me away...and yet I also knew that I would always be safe. Max...always putting everything else first in his life...he never really seemed to notice how unhappy I had become...knowing that I would always be last on his list of priorities. Zan...he would put me first always...and I knew that he would do what ever he had to to make sure that I was happy. I loved both these men...and yet...I found that my thoughts kept going back to only one of them...the one that would make ME the happiest....ZAN.

I needed to find him...to make him see that I loved him and that it was only him that I wanted to be with. I knew that I would have to deal with Max and the rest eventually...but right then all that mattered to me was Zan. I dressed quickly and ran downstairs to speak to Ava. She knew him better then anyone...and I hoped that maybe she could give me some clue as to where he may have run off too.

"Ava...I need you help" I hollored as I ran down the steps...only to stop dead in my tracks at the sight I found before me.


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"I love you Zan...you and you alone" she breathed into my ear...waking mes from my sleep. With out openings my eyes...I pull her body tighter to me and lay my head in the curves of her neck.

"Do you love me Zan" she whispers...

"I loves you"

"Say it louder....I want to hear how much you love me Zan"

"I loves you" I answers lounder.

"LOUDER...ZAN...LOUDER"

"I LOVE YOU" I scream outs to her...pulling her body closer to mines.


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I could feel the air leave my lungs...but I couldn't seem to take any air in as I stared at the sight before me. Zan and Ava were laying on the couch...in each others arms. Zan had his back to me...but I watched as he pulled her tighter aganst his body...placing his face in the curve of her neck. A smile crossed Ava's lips as he began to mumble his love for her against the skin of her neck...each profession louder then the last...pulling her body tighter against his own.

Try as I might I still couldn't get any air into my lungs...I couldn't move for what felt like hours...all I could do was stand there trying to breath...trying to make sense of what I was seeing before me...trying to figure out why the man that I loved...and claimed to love me...was now professing his love to another.

Now...normally I would have ran from this situation...racing to my room...I would have thrown myself onto my bed and cried myself silly...but not this time. I was angry...it was anger like I had never felt before...and I felt it spread through my entire body like a wildfire...and then I did something that makes me laugh today...but back then I thought Zan was going to kill me.

Running into the kitchen I grabbed the bucket we used to fill the ice machines and filled it full of ice. At the time it seemed like the right thing to do. In my demented mind...I thought that Zan and Ava needed to cool off a bit...and so I carried this ice bucket back to the breakroom and...

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I were dreaming of her...my princess...the love ofs my life. We hads just gotten married and it were now the night ofs our honeymoon...I were sleeping...afters having made loves to my princess three times...I were tired. but each times I tried to goes to sleep...she would kiss me and giggles...asking me to tells her how much I loved her...I may haves been tired...but I were more then glad to tells her. Each times I tolds her...she asked me to says it louder...I ain't care...I woulds shout it from the rooftops...I LOVE LIZ PARKER. "Make love to me again Zan...I need you inside me" this woman were going to kill me...but it were only a dream...so what the hell.

"WHAT THE FUCK" I screamed jumping of the couch...after I feeled somethin wet and cold soaking my fuckin body. I were trying to gets the sleep out my eyes...so I ain't seen her...all I heards was somthin metal hitting the ground and thens a door slamming. I ain't have to have fuckin vibes to know who it were that did this.

Ava said somethin...but I ain't have time for her...I were fuckin pissed...I ain't knowed what her fuckin problem were...but me and her was going to have a fuckin chat...and I were going to find out.


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again I just stood there...watching as Zan held Ava in his arms...profession his love to her...all the while holding the full ice bucket in my hands. I knew that I needed to cool off...and just maybe they needed to cool off to.

I aimed the bucket right at Zan...he seemed to be the one that needed to cool off the most. I watched in slow motion as the ice flew from the bucket...landing all over his muscular body. I didn't see him jump off the couch...but I sure heard him as he did and the slew of profanities that flew out of his mouth and this time...it did not turn me on.

Running into my apartment...I slammed the door and ran to my room....locking the door behind me. Stupid I know...like he couldn't get in just by using his powers...and that is exactly what he did.


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I trieds to open her bedrooms door...but its were locked. I hads to fuckin chuckle at thats...likes I couldn't use my fuckin powers to gets in. Waving my hand in fronts of the lock...it popped open and I threws the door open. She were trying to climbs out her window...but I stopped her...grabbing hers waist...and pulling hers against my body...causing an instant fuckin hard on. She were pissed I coulds feel it...and it were turning me ons ore thens you coulds believe. "GET YOUR DAMNED HANDS OFF ME..." she screamed pushing my hands offs her waist and facing me's. "DON'T YOU EVER TOUCH ME AGAIN"

Her lips were so close to mines that I could feels her breath on my face...I ain't have a choice...my lips hads a fuckin minds of its own...and



PART 16


If I thought I was angry at Zan for his display of affection towards Ava minutes before...it was nothing compared to the anger that surged through my body as he grabbed my waist and pulled me tightly again his body. You would think that I would be happy that the man I love was pulling me into his arms...and the fact that he was completly aroused...should have made it even better...but I knew that I wasn' the one that caused that reaction in him and well lets just say that I was more then just a little unhappy about that....and he was about to find out just how unhappy I was. Hell...I was about to find out just how unhappy I was about it.


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I coulds feel her breaths on my face...she were so close...and I aint have a choice...I hads to fuckin kiss her. I pulled her body against mines...causing my hard on to grows again. I needed to taste her lips... and she weren't close enoughs...I needed to feel her closer...I wanted hers to feels what she were doing to me. I's pulled her closer and then I's crushed my lips to hers lips. She tried to's say somethin...but I droves my tongue into her mouth...stopping her for like a second. She ain't kiss me back though...she just stoods there. I knowed she were fuckin pissed about Ava and me...but I didn't know just how pissed. But...I sure were going to finds out.

She pushed her self aways from me's...and thens I watched in slow motions as she pulled her fist back...I couldn't stops the grin that covered my face...I knowed that there were no fuckin way that she were going to hit me...there were no way that my princess were gonna hits me...Yeah...I thoughts that were until I felts her fist makes contact withs my face. "I SAID DON'T YOU EVER TOUCH ME AGAIN" she screamed...as she rans past me...towards the door.

I coulds only stands there...there were no fuckin way that my princess just fuckin hits me. It ain't hurt...but that were't the problem...the problem were...my princess...hads just fuckin hit me.


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I couldn't believe the nerve of him...there he was completely aroused...by Ava none the less...and now he was kissing me. I tried to speak...tried to pull away...but it seemed to only urge him on...because before I knew it...he was pulling me tighter against he arousal and shoving his tongue down my throat...and I lost it...I couldn't control my anger any more...I had to make him hurt as much as I was hurting.

I felt like I had lost my mind...felt like I was going mad. I had no control of my body...I didn't even know what I had done until I felt my fist meet his face...but I was too consumed by my anger to even care...and so I ran for the door. I don't know where I thought I was going...I knew he wasn't going to just let me leave after that...but I tried anyway. "WHAT YOUR FUCKIN PROBLEM...PRINCESS" he screamed as he spun me around to face him.

"I'M NOT YOUR PRINCESS...AND YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT MY PROBLEM IS ZAN...HUH DO YOU....YOUR MY FUCKIN PROBLEM. YOU AND YOUR LITTLE TRAMP DOWN..."


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"DON'T YOU FUCKIN TALKS ABOUT HER LIKES THAT" I yelled...cutting her off. I were so fuckin pissed...I weren't gonna listen to anyone...even Liz Parker...talk shit bout Ava. Ava were there for every fuckin time I needed hers...which were more then I could say her Liz at that times. I grabbed her shoulders and pulled her face to mines...cause I wanted her to understands whats I hads to say. "SHE AIN'T NO FUCKIN TRAMP...YOU'S GOT THAT...LEAST I KNOWS THAT I CAN TRUSTS AVA...SHE AIN'T GONNA FUCKIN LIE TO ME LIKES YOU DID"

I were expecting to gets a reation from her's...but I ain't get the one that I thoughts I were gonna get.


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As the madness took over...I found that I couldn't control the laughter that erupted from my throat...nor the words the crossed over my lips. "Your right...Zan" I laughed...placing my hand on his swollen cheek. I watched as he winced at my touch...and the look of sadness that briefly crossed his eyes. I didn't know if it was my touch that caused him to wince...or my words...but I still didn't care...and my madness continued. "I lied to you. I lied when I told you that I loved you. Because...you were just a substitute...a substite for a real man...a substitue for Max...the real King. I can't believe that you thought I would fall for the reject king...oh you did...how sad. "Go back to New York...Zan...I don't need you here anymore. Max will be back soon...and oh by the way....don't forget to take your little tramp with you"


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I watched as she flipped her fuckin hair back...and just stoods there with a fuckin smirk on her face. I didn't thinks that I could gets madder then whens I heard her...tells Ava that she loved and needed my dupe...but as whats she saids sunk in...I lost my fuckin minds for the second times that night.

"YOU'S FUCKIN CRAZY...BITCH" I spats at her...grabbing the sides of her head betweens my hands. "I COULD FUCKIN KILLS YOU RIGHT NOW" I growled as I begans to squeeze. "I DON'T KNOW WHO THE FUCK YOU THINK YOU IS...BUT YOU BETTER FUCKIN HEAR THIS...YOU THINKS I CARE THAT YOU AIN'T LOVE ME...CAUSE I DON'T. YOU WANTS MY FUCKIN DUPE...THENS HAVE HIM...CAUSE I DON'T FUCKIN WANTS YOU. YOU THINKS HE THE MAN...JUST CAUSE HE THE FUCKIN KING...PRINCESS...THAT DON'T MAKES HIM A MAN. BUTS YOU KNOW THIS...PRINCESS...I'M THE FUCKIN MAN. MAXIE BOY AIN'T NEVER GONNA PLEASE YOU THE WAY I WOULD HAVES. I WANTS YOU TO RMEMBER...THAT IT GONNA BE ME THAT YOU THINKIN OF WHEN MAXIE FUCKIN YOU...NOT HIMS.....ME"

The thought of my dupe fuckin touching her droves me fuckin crazy...and so's...with outs thinkin I started squeezing her head even harders...I ain't see her tears or hears her cry outs...but Ava dids.

"ZAN...WHAT THE FUCK YOU DOING" she screamed...pulling Liz out ofs the hold I hads on her. I couldn't moves...I just stoods there as the reality of whats I did sinked in.

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The pain that I felt from his hands was nothing compared to the pain that his words caused me. I felt as if my whole world had ended right then and there...I found that I longed for the pain that his hands were causing...that I wanted the the pain in my head to increase...increase until I no longer felt the pain that was now surrounding my heart.

This was all my fault...I had caused this...I deserved this. I was angry...I thought I was angry at Zan...but as I listened to his words...I realized that I wasn't angry at Zan...I was angry with Max. I was so angry with Max...he was the reason that my life was so miserable...miserable until Zan came into it. It was him and him alone that brought happiness back into my life. I thought that I would never be happy again...after Max gave me back the engraved pocket knife I had given him for Christmas the year before. It made the fact that he was moving on final...and I knew that without Max I could never be happy...and so I just accepted it as fact.

But...I was wrong. Zan had breezed into my life and proved to me that I could have happiness in my life once again...he was the reason for that...but I knew that it too late. I didn't realize just how much I resented Max...and instead of embracing Zan into my life...I directed all this resentment onto him.

Falling to the floor...I was unable to move...I couldn't speak...all I could do sit there as the tears fell from my eyes. But...these weren't tears that were caused by Zan...no...these were tears that were caused by me...because I knew that there was no way that Zan could ever forgive me for all that I had done and said to him. I knew that Zan loved me...I could feel it each time that he touched me...kissed me...I even felt it before we met. He loved me with all he was...and I used that love against him. I wanted Max to suffer like I was suffering...and since Max wasn't here...Zan unfairly took his place.


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I watched as she felled to the floor...I sawed the pain that crossed her face...I watched as tears felled down her face...all this were because of me. This were all my fuckin fault.

When I gots here...alls that mattered were that she were going to be mines. I didn't care abouts anythin else...she were going to mines. I felt how much she loved my dupe...but I ain't care and I ignored it. She were hurt by my dupe...but she still loved hims. Here I were looking just likes the love of her life...and I fuckin confused her. I gaves her what my dupe hadn't been givng her...attention...I knowed this...and I stills pushed ons.

I hads no rights to get pissed whens she tolds Ava she loved him...I already knowed it. But I knows now that I wanted her to finds me and Ava sleeping togethers. I wanted to make her hurts like I were. But...I wents to far...I fuckin hurts her. I puts my hands on my princess and hurt her. I wanted to fuckin die...I hads to get outs of there...I weren't no good for her. She belonged with my dupe...they may haves had some problems...but he mades her happy...alls I could do was hurts her.

"I'm...I'm..sorry" I stuttered...as my owns tears started to fall. I tooks one more look at my princess and rans...I rans like I ain't never runs before. I hads to leave...hads to get out of her life...forever.

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"Please Zan...don't leave me" I whispered...



PART 17


"Please Zan...don't leave me" I whispered...as my tears continued to roll down my face. I wanted to run after him...throw myself into his strong arms...and beg for his forgiveness. As I kissed his lips...I wanted to make him see that it was he...not Max...who was the love of my life. But...I was unable to move...unable to run after the man that I loved...unable to prove to him that I loved him...that I wanted him...that I needed him.

"Ava...please" I whispered as I looked up into her eyes. "bring him back to me" I had a hard time reading the look that crossed her face...it was either a look of pity...or sadness...maybe both...it was hard to see through the tears that flowed from my eyes. But...the truth was that...I didn't care and it didn't matter what she was feeling for me...all that mattered was that I needed her to bring Zan back to me. "I thinks that you needs to let him go...you two's ain't meant to be together...you both too different"

Grabbing the side of the bed...I slowly pulled myself off the floor..as a wave of dizziness rushed over me. I felt as if my whole body was weighted down...and my movements were slow and painful. My head was throbbing so much...that I found it almost impossible to focus on anything. "No" I whispered...afraid that if I spoke much louder then a whisper it would cause the throbbing to increase. "I love him...I have to find him...I need him...Ava...WE DO BELONG TOGETHER" I yelled as another wave of dizziness washed over me...causing me to lose my balance and fall forward.

"LIZ" Ava screamed...rushing forward to catch me. "you ok"

"Just dizzy" I replied...as she helped me move over to the bed to sit down. Taking her hand into mine...I looked into her face...I wanted her to look into my eyes and see that what I said to her next was the truth. "Ava...please...you have to believe me when I tell you that I love him. I was confused...I was upset with Max...and I took it out on Zan. I was wrong...I love him...Ava. Please...bring him back to me"

"I can't makes any promises...but I will tries" she said...as I watched her walk out the room. "Please let her find him and bring him back to me" I whispered into the empty room...hoping that someone would hear my prayer and bring Zan back to the one place that he belong...with me.


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I ain't know where to goes or whats to do. I were still in shock that I had laid my hands on my princess...that I hads caused her pain by my owns hands. I just wents crazy as I sawed the picture of her and my dupe in my head. I ain't mean to hurts her...and I ain't mean any of those things I sayed to her. Truth were...I loved her...I loved her so much it fuckin scareds me.

I saws the ride I hads stolen in New York and jumped ins it. But...I weren't able to starts it up...I coulds only sit there and cries...I couldn't stops the tears...I feeled like my whole fuckin reason for livin hads just died...and I ain't care anymore. I just knowed that I hads to get back to New York...hads to get out of this Roswell...hads to get away from her. I ain't wants to leave her...I had cames her to find her...she were the ones that I were waitin for my whole lifes...but I hads fucked that up...and so I started the car.

Wiping my eyes with the arm ofs my shirt...I started backing outs into the street...untils I heards someone screaming my name. I closed my eyes and hope thats it would be my princess...but it weren't...it were Ava instead.
"Where's you goin...Zan" she asked me...but I ain't answer her...ain't looked at her...I just wanted to leaves as fast as I coulds.

"Looks...either you commin withs me...or you stayin here...makes up your mind...cause I is outta here either ways" I growled...still not looking at her. She just stoods there...I knowed that she ain't wanna go backs to New York...but I ain't care...I hads to leave and I hads to leaves right then. It hurt to much to stays in Roswell...knowing that I hads hurt my princess...I thoughts that if I left that the pains would goes away...for both of us. "I ain't fuckin kiddin...you commin or yous stayin...makes up your minds now...Ava"

"Don't do this...Zan...she needs you" Ava said...as she gots into the front seats of the car. I ain't answer her...I just hit the gas and gots out of fuckin Roswell as fast as I coulds.